I jus don't wan to be given a death penalty for nothing.
So i explain to him one last time... and apologised to him for the last time.
And it somehow marks the end of the r/s.
And is time to move on, and at least i hav the courage to face it. I have the courage to admit my fault. But he chose to avoid and hide.

Suling told me not to allow ppl to take me for granted.. she told me i shd jus move on and build up my own character.
And... someone told me, to love myself... and to find someone who willing to shower me wif love. Well, i guess wif soo much fren's support...Like ling and kel who will on and off msg me to make sure i am all rite.. and send me motivation quote to encourage me. Colm-ge who will accompany me in the middle of the nites when i cant slp. And libin who will worry abt me.. zul will offer his fat shoulder to cry on... wif soo much love from frens...i really appreciate dem..

I shall take charge of my own remote control now. And no one going to affect me any further.

Mum called me many times, and i kept telling her is not entirely his faults... and mum will painfully asked me this question "why will u allow other ppl to hurt you and still trying to protect him...he is other ppl's son who wants respect.. how abt you are mine daughter and u deserve to be loved too..." I was speechless.. cos i do not wan my mum to worry too much abt me... i do not wan her to think too much when she herself alr hav soo much to bear... her r/s wif her husband, her work.. her family.

I shdnt say jean who is blinded in love.. cos i was once like her.