I was having terrible insonmia the nite be4...
I cant get to slp.. and my head was super heavy...

Stoned the whole friday away at home.
All i did was to slp.
The sight of food doesn't appeal to me anymore.
Yet i noe.. i hav to eat... i can eat while crying, i can cry while slping. But i no longer feel the pain...my heart jus race faster than usual for every breathe i took.
I jus try to cry... cry to make myself feel better.. Many times i think i am jus trying too hard.

Its seems to go back to 6 months ago... to continue the painful process which was incomplete.

I trust u. But becos of her, u lied.
It can jus be very simple reason becos u dun wan me to feel upset.
I kept my mouth shut hoping to digest it.
I can hav all reasons to flare.. but i did not.
Cos i truthly believe u both are frens.
why i asked tat question, becos i need ur assurance.

Anyway, i noe this blog will not be read by him anymore.

It doesn't matter anymore.

Wrong step, why i ever tot of bbm ryk using ur phone?

ok, reeally doesn't matter anymore.