It has come to the last month for the year 2009...
And being in the corporate world, made me realised how fast time had flies.

Everyone used to tell me, after the age of '21', after the adulthood.. everything will seem to fly pretty fast...
And yess.. before i know it, i will be entering into the mid 20s category soon.
*Bleh* Having the tot of it, my heart beat was racing fast as well.
Yes, i am scare.. scare of having my love ones leaving me and of cos im scare of being old and hav yet to accomplish anything major in life.
Thats quite pathetic being me huh? :s

2009...

It has been a yr of ups and downs.
Family having problem...
R/s wasn't sailing smooth during the mid of the year..
My career has been stagnant.
Frenship, i gained some i lost a few...
My health sucks. I jus recovered from my high fever..

I am wishing next yr will be a better yr..

Mummy will be starting her own biz in a sec sch next yr - selling economical rice. I was pretty worried la.. At one time, im hoping she will be occupied wif things to do, instead of having her tots run wild at times.. but im worry she will end up making herself more tired... waking up at 4plus am and off work at 3 plus pm.. So im hoping some of our relatives will help her up.. or mayb i can get some leave to help up when im free.. at the same time bioing some young boys in sch... haha.

Been thinking quite alot these days...
I hav been bless wif wonderful mummy.. caring bros... helpful frens and loving yet sassy bf. I shdn't be taking them for granted..

Especially for frens.. I let down a few...
I admit im someone who needs plenty of attention..

Kelly poh, i guess i owe u an apology many yrs ago.. hhaa. and i hope im not too late.. (Ling, mayb u can show kel this entry..tks. trouble u again. =D)
On Ling's 21st.. i threw your bouquet of flower on the floor which u gave Ling on her bday.. To be frank, i was really in my sanity tat times.. thinking back, i jus cannot believe i did such a bad thing to you.. Perhaps, i was jealous for watever reasons which i cannot rem... Really sorry.. I am such a bad fren to you...

Ling, sorry again for being such a lousy fren.. doing things w/o running thru my brain.. And many things i did were unexpected, shocking.. and such an attention seeker freak... Make it this way, i am afraid of losing u frens.. soo im hoping to gain it back some way.. I am trying too hard i supposed.. and it makes me look even more childish..

Xm Aka fartie, we were always going thru the same shits at the same time.. reminding each other wat we did were sooo fuking wrong.. U were right on the last conversation we had... On r/s wise, if im really thinking of giving daniel up.. why am i holding on? Well, in actual fact, i nv hav the tot or courage of giving him up at all.. hahaa. is jus a moment of anger.. I am chidish.. i really nv grow up when it comes to r/s.

To my bf. Thanks for everything. Thanks for loving me. Thankss for being what i hope u will be and u are always trying.


My reflection for this year... tok less, listen more.. and be a better person.
Lets us wish for a better year in 2010.