I finally understand what it means by theres always a gain and loss in life.

I miss those days when the family staying tgt.. having dinner tgt.. watching tv tgt.. and chatting tgt.. thou the family is having a harder life, those time spent tgt were the precious.
And as time goes by, bros and i grow up... and dad started doing his own biz... In term of financial wise.. there are more earning power in the family... hence, gradually the family start having own life, be it at work or spending it wif frens and other love ones. Slowly, the family started to neglect each other... spending lesser time tgt..
Yea i noe it sound quite sad huh...

I finally met my dad yest who i hav not been seeing for the last 2 weeks..
Did not wish to elaborate further what my dad did, which made mum very unhappy and paranoid...
Sigh. Ppl falling in love. Ppl getting married.. woman going thru all shits for a man dey love.. and if at the end of the day... a man can say "bringing you out will embarrasses me..." I can nv imagine the pain..

I am pretty worry for mum who stayed at home most of the time by herself. I am afraid she think too much... i am afraid if anything mishap happen at home and no one is there for her.. especially mum is always very clumsy.. sigh.
I hav been trying my best to stay at home wif her.. eating dinner wif her... and of cos listen to her every heartfelt pain and sorrows.. Yet, I am speechless in giving her any advise.. And i feel quite sore for the entire issue.

Many time, i jus wish if only dad will not start out his own biz..will we be encountering such problem??

I wish that if only our lives will be more simple. Perhaps, i need not hav to worry over such shit anymore.


I feel disgusted...