Hi D,

Today is my 2nd day w/o u...
and i had my 2nd nite slping w/o u..
I had a hard slping recently.. i will wake up in fear.. crying very hard to myself..
But i got a little better yest, when i slept wif my bro and sis in law last nite..
haha.. I am sure u will find me soo CB.. seperating a newly wed..
I guess theres nothing much i can do.. becos i hav to slp wif dem in order to hav someone to tok to me till i fell aslp.. i guess at this moment.. it is the best way for me to make myself aslp..

U said, mayb we will wake up.. finding our break up not a big deal after all..
but why am i stil feeling soo shitty every morn.. trying to smile like nothing had happened..
trying to tok like the usual me..

but deep inside me.. im experiencing a terrible feeling of wanting to cry to ease the pain.. but no tears coming out..

Enough said of my fuking emo tok..
Let me tell u something u are interested..
I saw Gibson's pic last nite...
He was baking muffins wif his mum...
U can imagine him wearing a mini apron and him posing for the pictures.. tell u, he look damn pro baking the muffins.. hahaha!and im sure when i tell u these, u will smile and trying to imitate to me his cute behaviour. i told my sis in law.. she better give birth to someone as cute as him.. ahahaaha! but too bad, u won be anywhere to withness my future niece or nephew. =(
Anyway, i noe u wan me to be stronger w/o u... but as u said, u cant stop me from loving u... sooo lets hope time will really heal on my side..

sigh. Miss and love someone is damn soo terrible..

U take care.