Today is the eve of CNY, Mum's bday. =)
Happy birthday Mei Lan.
And Happy lunar new yr!!!

It is going to be a good good year/years! Be it working in a new department learning new stuff or hoping to get into SQ.. or some family problem here and dere... wonderful frens ard me... and my single life ahead, i will take it and face it all positively. =D

I felt i had really wasted my past few months feeling upset, dwelling in the past and chose to avoid problems which i ought to face it.
I refused to meet my parents for dinner cos i noe dey had problem. I refused to stand by the hard time wif dem when the family was falling apart.
Mum is getting stronger, she does her biz in sch well... her appetite improved, and most imptly she is enjoying every single moments wif the kids for dinner, mahjong wif her frens.. Looking at her, if mum is tat strong to accept it, why am i still living my life in agony?? Thanks to mum, she showed me how to move on. =)
And for the past 3 weeks, i spent soo much time wif the family which i felt that i had missed out for the last 3 yrs..and the feeling of regaining it back is nothing but love from the family...Dey will nv abandon me, never.

I told mum i wanted to place a tattoo.. She looked at me wif her 'huh' look!! hahaa. she doesn't agreee but she did not stop me.. lol. she stil asked me wat design and where i wanna put it!! Is not a bimbo act la, i hav been thinking abt it for quite sometime alr. Life is short, make the best out of it. Bro will bring me to his tattooist next week. I cant wait. =)

Mahjong wif the family after reunion dinner later. LOL. Time to earn more money from my bros and watever i used to learn from the past into goood use!! hahaha!!!

Relationship, is the last thingy tat come into my mind now. After i received a sms from QY last morn.. and i tot i was going to feel devastated to see or hear something i do not wish to listen... Apparently, i was shocked i feel nothing. Is either i was feeling too numb alr or i had move on unknowingly... I dun feel a single shitty feeling that watever he did is letting me down, or making me upset.. in fact i am thinking he is single.. he can do watever he wan as i am in no position to interfere his life or even feel disappointed.
Perhaps, he has a gf... but I will rather not known, is not becos im living in denial. but is more of like thinking, his life doesn't include me anymore.. why shd i even bother? I am not prepare to see him, or hear from him anytime soon... thou i hav move on, i need time for recovery, to mend my little tofu heart which was smashed million of times. hhaha!!!

Life goes on. Is jus a break up, and i need to grow up.


But still, if i hav a chance to tell u how i feel, i wan to tell u this 1 month ago, love from u is more than enough to make me stay.
Dun say u let me go cos u do not wan me to go thru these nonsense... cos i noe, is becos u no longer wan to go thru all these nonsense wif me. I wish u happiness. =)