Is another new week. another monday. And soon we are entering the 2nd quarter of the year. How fast time flies. To think of it, is actually quite scary to look back and to regain the memories which seem to be soo yesterday.

To be honest, i loathe being brought back to the past...
A fren of mine sms-ed me this morn, telling me he saw Pk.
Yes, i noe tat this name hav not been appearing in my blog for more than 2 yrs alr..
but somehow, i got to screw this mindset into any frens' mind tat... he is no longer in my life. He is no longer missed and loved.
I need not necessary have to noe where and how he is now..
We need to move on..

I do not know where i got the courage of mentioning him again.
To be honest, i felt pretty amazed on how i feel for him..
Is something which i refuse to admit, feeling comes and goes and even me myself find it hard to believe tat i can let it go pretty fast. Especially when i was with him for 3 yrs plus.

At the end of the day, i guess is jus becos i feel super tired of trying to calm him down whenever he feel paranoid. Tired when he was always doubt my feeling for him. Tired when he always find means and ways to find out something from me which he thought i was lying to him.

I know that r/s cant be able to work out without the word - trust.
Be it my trust which i need it from him and vise versa.
Not to mention he betrayed me when we were towards our 2nd year in the r/s.
And of cos me dumping him when i was in the state of dilemma between Howard and him.
I was childish back den... and i blamed myself for such complicated love affair.
U know it was like when u wanting to right the wrongs but it jus couldn't be able to work anymore w/o trust between both parties.

Till i met Shen.. Shen nv between Pk and I when the r/s turned sour.
I was nv serious for the first 2 months with Shen...
Neither did i tot it will come to another long term r/s..
I know i cant be more lucky when i met Shen.
He give me knowledge, he allow me to know wats the 4 letters words - L O V E means all over again. Trust is build up and he dote me loads.
I rem i told him i was craving for prawn aglio olio in the noon.. immediately tat nite, shen brought me to Hans and satisfy my craving. =)
I simply cant ask for more from him.

I have moved on. And do not want to think soo much on how the future will turn out to be.
I sincerely hope he has move on happily too. I am thankful there were happy memories given by him. And he definitely left a strong footprint in my life and will always be.


"Thanks, be it wherever u are.."



Hoho! I finally got back my Beloved G10. =D
After much negotiation, i managed to bargain from 114bucks to 50 bucks from Canon.
I am seriously not willing to pay 100over bucks for repair especially which my cam is still under warranty. =)
Cant wait to take beautiful pics in Tioman for the up-coming weekends.

p/s: Oh man! It has been a year since i got my brazilian waxing done.
Hell! It is bloody painful can!!