I was in the mood for L.O.V.E today.. So.. tet's tok abt the matters of the heart.

I remembered when i was in my younger days, i tot tat L.O.V.E is the most romantic, amazing feeling tat can ever happen to an individual. I looked forward to L.O.V.E. and i ever think tat love is happily ever after.. It can overcome everything.. and it means happiness always.. Sooo, whenever i watched any romantic movies, or read any romance story books.. i will glue myself to the television and the book, putting myself into the character of the female lead and drowned myself in sweetness. Fantasize in every scenarios and dying wanting to be crazily in love in real lifez.

Soooo, i fell in love at the age of 13.. and yes, i had my first bf at that young naive age. haha. First time ever, i experience hows the feeling like of missing someone, how izzit like when heart beats racing like 180km/hr when u are wif the person.. The feeling of holding his hand and tat kind of electric shock travelled thru the entire body. How the eyes met each other, and shook away shyly...
So be it tat wat ppl said was puppy love... at that young age, i was actually hoping this r/s can last...And now looking into it, i was surprised tat it can actually last for abt a yr plus.

There are a few more r/s which happened in my lifez, And each and different one i learnt something new out of it...

And becos the more i am into a r/s... the further i draw myself away from happily ever after.. the more I look at the r/s not jus abt an amazing feeling but many factors to make the r/s happen..

I used to meet an ex bf of mine, who betrayed me in a r/s... i used to blame him for ruining the beautiful pics of L.O.V.E., i blame him for making me feel paranoid, and to a point of time, i had phobia of trusting someone all over again...

Now, mayb i shd thank him... thank him for allowing myself to noe the uglier side of the world.. the cruelity of reality. Concurrently, allowing myself to move out the little world of my own, and dare to step out the world and look at the bigger and clearer pics.
No doubt, i feel disgusted by stories of cheating and betraying... this is the reality which i got to accept it..

My colleague told me tat she did not regret abt meeting the "wrong" ones in her life, cos w/o the wrong ones.. she won hav meet the Right one in her life now.

I feel for the phase. Yet my negative tot sets in, not many ppl are lucky enough to meet the wrong ones first and finally settle for the right one... there are many unfortunate one who mite jus nv going to meet the right one.

As for me, i will rather not meeting any one in this life time, than meeting the wrong one.....


I doubt i will ever going to settle down and walk down the aisle wif the wrong right one.