I am unhappy @ work.

I am not proactive, i won hav been like a begger begging ppl for work, asking if i can do anything to help.

Urrggg. Manager not ard, she cant feed me wif work and more work.
Chartering busy like hell, yet i can only look at her.. hoping to help..

=(

I dun wan to feel useless. I dun wan to feel like i am over-paid.
I wan to be busy, I wan to feel like i am helping everyone.. and not feel aimlessly desperate for deal.
Damn. No enquiries = no deals.
Ppl kept asking and once i provide the information.. dey run away quiety.
How to close a deal? How to feel motivated?
How to prepare a contract for a deal which i make an effort to make the deal happen?

Soo many unhappiness.. blame it tat i am over ambitious.. i merely want to feel useful.
But i jus refuses to give up.

I am going to make it happen.